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Kari minus Josh. [06 Feb 2009|12:03pm]
I've spent the last four days feeling like I'm about to throw up, except there's nothing there because my stomach has been ripped out and replaced with untouchable empty space.
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Shapeshifting at Duffy's, 11-26 [27 Nov 2008|01:16am]
[ mood | amused ]

Groped: Twice
Told I was "gorgeous, objectively, I'm not hitting on you, you're just gorgeous": Twice
Been approached and greeted familiarly by girls I don't know: Once

Was I wearing a mask, or what?

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[25 Nov 2008|01:36am]
[ mood | curious ]

One thing that has struck me about the program is the amount of self-exploration (and, consequently, self-challenging) we have to do. I mean, half the point of our training is to iron out some of our issues so that we don't unintentionally damage our clients. It's intense. We're like ants under a microscope. And right now I feel like I'm getting burned.

It's not a negative thing-- just overwhelming. And Jesus, am I glad that I have a few good friends in my cohort who are going through it with me.

But sometimes when I feel this overwhelmed with detail, I can't step back and see the big picture. Meaning, I get lost in myself. I'm just anxious... restless.

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[07 Nov 2008|09:33am]
[ mood | calm ]

I have pink eye... but other than that, things are looking up. No school on Tuesday, less work next week (!), going home this weekend, and the country has finally displayed something other than ignorance or apathy...

It's really nice to care about what's going on in the world around me again. For the last few years, as a protective measure, I guess, I've been numb.

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Prop 8 [05 Nov 2008|09:07am]
[ mood | ...... ]

There was such a sense of excitement in the air last night. Everybody was refreshed. We had done it! Change was coming! We would all see it together!

....And then 52% of California voted to throw us back and tear us apart again.

I am disgusted and ashamed.

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[04 Nov 2008|11:11pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Today was inspiring. Of course, Obama won by a landslide. I voted in a presidential election for the first time. I watched the results flash across the TV screen with my boyfriend and friends, and then joined a horde of Obama supporters at Duffy's. Now let's wait and see if CA follows suit on Prop 8-- though it looks good for Prop 4.

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Certainly absurd, nearly comical. [22 Oct 2008|10:24am]
[ mood | what? ]

I've been having a fun time lately, going out and getting to know people and dancing and such.

But last night, I met someone who, in essence, dehumanized me because I have chosen to become a therapist.

It was very hurtful at the time, but in the morning light, it just seems ridiculous. I mean, Christ. Do people harbor hatred for everything now?

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Two thoughts. [12 Sep 2008|12:23am]
[ mood | lots ]

Time is passing so quickly.

And I'm grateful that I have the people in my life that I do.

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[21 Aug 2008|08:42am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I am so frickin' excited that the semester is starting that I can hardly contain myself.

And for once, I am not being sarcastic.

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[17 Aug 2008|10:21am]
[ mood | calm ]

I was at Banshee last night with my roommates; they were playing the Olympics, and everyone in the bar was chanting, "USA! USA!" and shouting and clapping when the Americans won something. I was amused because this is the only sort of situation where college students would be unironically cheering for this country.

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New crush. [13 Aug 2008|08:04pm]
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[08 May 2008|12:13am]
[ mood | calm ]

It's been awhile since I've posted. The days are flying by... I'm working a lot, neglecting Catalyst, forcing myself to care about school, and wearing lots of dresses.

Well, I think next year is going to be incredible. This was my transition year, all stress and figuring things out. I suspect that I am finding my niche in Chico and in life, really. Despite what my period-induced mood swings are telling me this week. (Frequent purchases of tampons and ice cream [light!...?] are never a good sign.)

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That's right. [16 Apr 2008|11:23pm]
[ mood | grad student ]

Ahhh, to be a grad student in love in the Spring.

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Playlist 1-28-08 [28 Jan 2008|03:12pm]
"God Only Knows," Beach Boys
"The Oscillator's Hum," Frog Eyes
"Jockey Full of Bourbon," Tom Waits
"King of Carrot Flowers," NMH
"Reuben," Cathy Davey
"Music For Evenings," Young Marble Giants
From Trouble In Dreams, my favorites are currently: "Blue Flower/Blue Flame," "Dark Leaves From A Thread," "My Favorite Year," "Shooting Rockets," "Introducing Angels," "Leopard of Honor,".... fuck, pretty much all of it, actually.
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Finals/kitten/volunteering/applications/plans/life. [13 Dec 2007|04:38pm]
[ mood | ready ]

So. Much. Work.

Here it comes.

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Persius [09 Dec 2007|04:45pm]
[ mood | enthralled ]

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[08 Dec 2007|12:50am]
[ mood | excited ]

So I'm pretty sure I'm getting a kitten on Sunday.

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[26 Nov 2007|08:23am]
[ mood | school. ]

Back to the trenches.

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[18 Oct 2007|10:16pm]
[ mood | erotic ]

Under the white chalk
Drawn on the black board
Drawn on the black board
Under the x-ray
I'm just a vertebrate

Do that to me
Do that to my anatomy
Do that to me
Do that to my anatomy
Corporeal, corporeal

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Gross. [15 Oct 2007|12:01pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

God, I am really, really, ridiculously in love.

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